Sometimes i feel

I get sad like everyone else when i get disappointments but i feel there is some force in me which makes me different from the rest of the world....having great ability to absorb any sort of pressure in any kind of situation....Having the ability to bounce back when i am completely down......is a bit of advantage......I take things for granted in certain times which lets me down in some crucial situations...But still life moves on.....my experiences are my motivation...I feel the driving force in me is "me"....I am sure that its impossible for any other person to understand what my mind is thinking cause i often tend to mislead persons by pretending myself as some other different person so there is absolutely no chance for them to see the real me...I act like myself only when i feel i should...I exactly know what i am my strengths my weaknesses, my passions, my ups and downs,,,,,,I keep my sadness in me...i'll try to burry all the sadness in my eyes and always try to act as normal...there are really few things which excite me truely rest are only temporary....I do certain kind of things even i dont like them from my inner heart......I dont know i am doing it right or wrong.....But i am sure my inner soul always drives me to the right things...i get it right whenever i hear to it.....i do mistakes when i don't hear to it....My eyes always search for something constantly and the search continues still i dont know when it ends but i m sure i'll find it one day sooner or later and then i may calm down a bit and be myself more often.....so many unanswered questions at the back of my mind will be answered for sure......